Author: dtm666

I ramble about things.

Sacha Home Movies 2013-07-25 – I Just Want To Sleep In Peace

Taken back in July 2013, Sacha was trying to sleep in peace while I was trying to get her to pay attention to the camera. Sacha was a bit camera shy at times, but there were days when she’d be bouncing all over the place. And humping stuff. And peeing anywhere she could. Good times.

I’ll be posting these home movies every so often – stuff that may have been posted in the past, but there’s also some stuff that I’ve not seen in years. It’s not much, but I just wanted to show how much of a special dog Sacha was… and how much we miss her.

Impact (February 15th, 2024) – Not In The Mood…

I honestly don’t if I should even be doing this right now… my mind’s not in the right frame of mind at the moment. I’m still reeling over the loss of my friend. I haven’t done much of anything else… and to tell you the truth, there wasn’t much on this show that really stuck out to mind other than a pretty good match between Jordynne Grace and Savannah Evans as well as the stuff between Kazarian and Eric Young.

Oh, and the Crazy Steve/Rhino match for the Digital Title was pretty fun stuff too.

I’m probably doing this show a disservice by giving it a half-hearted write-up, but thankfully, this isn’t a regular review gig and I don’t get paid for it. So I’m not worried…

I do miss my friend, though.

Dear Sacha…

Hey, Sacha.

How’re you doing today?

It’s been a few days since I last saw you…
A few days since you’ve left us…
Are you doing well?

Did you pee on the pearly gates?
Did you hump any clouds?
Did you find one cloud that is comfortable to lay in?

Most of all… are you feeling any better?

I want to believe that you are…
I want to believe that you’re in a better place…
I want to believe that your days of suffering has ended…

I want to believe that…
I want to believe that so that I sleep well at night…

But every day I wake up on this world…
Is another day knowing that you’re not around…

And that makes me sad…

Oh, Sacha…
How I miss you dearly.

Resistant

Family thought about getting another dog…
I’m not too keen on the idea…
Not because I don’t like having a dog around…
It’s been a little quiet around these parts…

But here’s the thing…
I don’t want another dog…
I want my dog back…
I want my friend back…

I miss her so much…

And to just replace her with another one?
So soon?
It wouldn’t be fair to the new kid…
Especially if I’m still missing the old one.

The pain is still there…
The grief is still there…
I can’t just set it aside…
I need a little more time…

A little more time…

More time…

Oh, Sacha…

How I miss you…

Dwelling…

It’s been 72 hours since my friend left this world…
And yet the hole in my heart still remains…
Others have seemingly gotten over the pain…
Seemingly moved on with their lives…
Seemingly putting up a front to hide their feelings…
So why can’t I do these thing?

Why does my heart still ache for my lost friend?
Why do tears still flow from my eyes days later?
Why do happy memories not ease my pain?
Why do I still cry over my missing friend?

I woke up this morning and saw the sun shine bright…
I step outside to feel the cool yet gentle breeze…
I go on with my day, making a note to take the dog for a walk…
Only to realize that there is no longer a dog to walk…
And then I am overwhelmed with grief…

Oh, Sacha…
Why did you have to go?
Why did you have to leave us so soon?
Why couldn’t you have stayed a little while longer?
Your gentle warmth and love is sorely missed…
And the world is all the worse without it…

I want to move on…
I really do…
But I don’t know how…
And I don’t know…
If I ever could…

Got The Day Off… But Do I Really Want It?

Was given Friday off…
Figured it was a way to grieve…
Question is…
Do I really want that time off?
Will it really help?

The more time I have to myself…
The more time I have to dwell…
And the more time I have to dwell…
The more I realize…
That my friend is no longer here.

And that’s when it hurts the most.