Resistant

Family thought about getting another dog…
I’m not too keen on the idea…
Not because I don’t like having a dog around…
It’s been a little quiet around these parts…

But here’s the thing…
I don’t want another dog…
I want my dog back…
I want my friend back…

I miss her so much…

And to just replace her with another one?
So soon?
It wouldn’t be fair to the new kid…
Especially if I’m still missing the old one.

The pain is still there…
The grief is still there…
I can’t just set it aside…
I need a little more time…

A little more time…

More time…

Oh, Sacha…

How I miss you…

Dwelling…

It’s been 72 hours since my friend left this world…
And yet the hole in my heart still remains…
Others have seemingly gotten over the pain…
Seemingly moved on with their lives…
Seemingly putting up a front to hide their feelings…
So why can’t I do these thing?

Why does my heart still ache for my lost friend?
Why do tears still flow from my eyes days later?
Why do happy memories not ease my pain?
Why do I still cry over my missing friend?

I woke up this morning and saw the sun shine bright…
I step outside to feel the cool yet gentle breeze…
I go on with my day, making a note to take the dog for a walk…
Only to realize that there is no longer a dog to walk…
And then I am overwhelmed with grief…

Oh, Sacha…
Why did you have to go?
Why did you have to leave us so soon?
Why couldn’t you have stayed a little while longer?
Your gentle warmth and love is sorely missed…
And the world is all the worse without it…

I want to move on…
I really do…
But I don’t know how…
And I don’t know…
If I ever could…

Got The Day Off… But Do I Really Want It?

Was given Friday off…
Figured it was a way to grieve…
Question is…
Do I really want that time off?
Will it really help?

The more time I have to myself…
The more time I have to dwell…
And the more time I have to dwell…
The more I realize…
That my friend is no longer here.

And that’s when it hurts the most.

Going Forward… And Failing Miserably

First off, I want to say thank you for all the kind words on Tuesday’s post on the Youtube channel’s community post as well as some of the e-mail messages that I’ve received. They’re all greatly appreciated and for what it’s worth, I’ve read each and every one of them to Sacha before she had gone. Poor thing could barely see, but she heard every word said. And she went out knowing that people cared about her. Not just the immediate family and friends, but complete strangers who only knew her from the first five seconds that open almost every video I’ve posted in the past decade or so.
Every day is a struggle for the rest of us. Every day that passes without her is a burden… but knowing she’s in a better place – probably pissing on the pearly gates or humping a couple clouds along the way – brings a slight smile on my face… before it dissolves into tears once more. Every passing thought of the times we shared together brightens my day… before every passing moment under the realization that those days are long gone… and so is she.
I miss her very much… in ways that can never be properly put to words.
So what happens now? Well, obviously, I’m going to be laying low for a little bit… I’m not exactly in the mood to be doing much of anything at the moment. I have been gathering up whatever videos and photos that I’ve collected on Sacha over the years and am planning on putting together a little tribute video of sorts to celebrate her life. Folks who frequent this blog or the Youtube channel know her as sort of a mascot for my little corner of the web and she will continue to have a presence around these parts. But I want to share with folks the kind of friend that Sacha truly is and what she really means to those who loved and cared for her.
Sacha might have gone elsewhere, but she will always be around.

A Somber Valentine

Valentine’s Day is usually a day of love and celebration.
A day where you show affection for your loved ones.
This year’s Valentine will be a somber one for me.
For it is the day that I mourn the loss of my friend…

A friend who was loved and treated well…
A friend who was there for when we needed her most…
A friend who was loyal and playful…
A friend who was loved until the very end…
A friend who presence is sorely missed.

I often hear that letting go is often the hardest part.
But I don’t believe that to be the case.
Knowing she’s in a better place brings some comfort.
But facing the void left in her place…
That’s the real hard part.

How I wish that my friend was still here…
Her warmth and love is needed most…
And can never be replaced.

This pain I feel is all too great…
This hole left behind too big to fill.

The days spent with her, always to be cherished…
The days ahead without her, not so much…

I will always embrace my short time with my friend…
I will never forget those moments – good or bad.
I will always remember my friend with great affection…
And I will always miss her dearly.

Goodbye, Sacha.
And thank you for being my friend.

Impact (February 8th, 2024) – A So-So Show Highlights A Morbid Weekend

Coming out of a miserable weekend on the personal side of things, but fortunately, we have another episode of TNA Impact to bring some much needed good vibes to an otherwise morbid period… never did I ever think I’d be describing TNA or Impact as anything involving “good vibes.” This truly is a new era.

Well, until the next set of tapings come along, that is… then we’ve got another “new” era of TNA to endure since the departure of one of its key figures, but we’ll save that discussion for later down the road. I’d like to keep things a little upbeat for the moment.

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The Last Word on DWAYNE

“Hey, kid! You wanna watch DUH ROCK go one-on-one with Roman Reigns at Wrestlemania?”

“No, thanks. I’m gonna get laid that night.”

“Okay, how about watching Cody finishing his story?”

“You mean he’s going after the 24/7 title?”

“What? No… no, you dumb fuck! No! I mean, he’s going to fight Roman for the title at Wrestlemania?”

“Wait, I thought Roman was fighting DUH ROCK at Wrestlemania?”

“Yeah, Wrestlemania Night 1.”

“What do you mean Night 1?”

“Well, Roman fights Rock at Night 1. And then he fights Cody at Night 2. That way, everyone wins!”

“Well, what about Punk?”

“Punk hurt his triceps and he’s gonna miss Mania.”

“Why is he gonna miss Mania?”

“Because he tore a tricep.”

“So what? Cody wrestled with a TORN FRICKIN’ PECK!”

“But Punk tore a muscle. He’s hurt.”

“Aw, give him a couple Z-Paks and he’ll be fine. I don’t care if you gotta Z-Pak him to death. I WANT CM PUNK TO MAIN EVENT WRESTLEMANIA!!”

“Well, that ain’t happening…”

“Oh…”

“Yep…”

“Well, what about Sasha Banks?”

“What about Sasha Banks?”

“What if she ends up in the main event and challenges Rhea Ripley for the title?”

“That’s impossible. Sasha’s on Tony Khan’s payroll…”

“WHAT?! WHADDAYAMEAN SHE’S ON THE TONY KHAN PAYROLL?!!”

“Yeah, well, she might be debuting on the Dynamite episode from Boston.”

“Oh… well, that’s cool. Nice to see they announced her debut ahead of time so they can sell some tickets.”

“Um… they didn’t announce that they signed her.”

“What do you mean? Isn’t that what Tony Khan’s ‘big announcement’ was? That he signed Sasha Banks to a contract?”

“Nah, he just announced that there’s a show in Boston… except he needs to hire some spellcheckers because they keep spelling it ‘Bo$$ton’ instead of ‘Boston’ like it’s normally spelled.”

“…”

“Kid, are you okay?”

“I’m outta here.”

“It’s late at night! Where are you going at this time?”

“I’m gonna get laid tonight.”

…

…

Yeah, I don’t know where I was going with that, either.

But yeah… so, apparently, Cody gets to finish his story at Mania.

Or so they say…

Welp…

Something Different For A Change… A Look Into Cobra Kai’s Final Season

Source: https://www.netflix.com/tudum/cobra-kai-season-6-final-season

Apparently, they’re only getting around to film Cobra Kai’s final season now and we still have no word on when it’s going to hit… so no news, then.

I’ve been rewatching Cobra Kai this past week before cancelling my Netflix subscription and honestly, it’s a good show. I missed out on the whole Karate Kid thing as a younger kid, but the show got me interested in those movies that I bought a DVD set with said movies, which I thought were alright. I found myself enjoying Part 2 more so than the other two, and Part 3, despite being a total retread of Part 1, had its moments. I even watched the 2010 “remake” with Jackie Chan… and that one is something, I guess.

I’m looking forward to seeing how the show wraps up when it finally drops. And I’m especially curious about this new Karate Kid movie that’s going to combine the two movies together. I’d imagine it won’t be a total dumpster fire, but who knows for sure?

But I’m sure that we can blame DWAYNE if things go tits up.