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I Couldn’t Tell You How To Grieve Because I’m Not Sure How Myself

Today marks a month since Sacha left us.

I still think of her everyday.

I still shed tears.

I still miss her.

I have never been good at grief. I have never been good at managing emotions. I have a bit of a temper. Not the temper you see around these parts because that’s mostly for show… but I do flare up over trivial things. And when it comes to the big emotional things… well, that’s the stuff that overwhelms me.

You want to say that you’re prepared for the day when a loved one passes. It’s an inevitability. But the truth is you’re never prepared. You’re never sure how you’re going to react until it happens and when it does finally happen, that’s when you realize that you’re not prepared. Especially if it’s someone who’s close. Especially if they’re a constant part of your life.

In the days since she left us, I’ve been looking online for ways to cope with my grief. Every day, I wrote a little something to express my pain. Some of what I wrote can be somewhat distressing… but what I can tell you is that what’s written on paper (or in this case, a online blog post) pales in comparison to the emotion behind those words. The feelings expressed in those posts undersell my actual emotional state at the time I wrote them.

I eventually got around to gather every video and photo that I had of Sacha on hand – scattered across multiple memory cards, hard drives, and my slowly falling apart Galaxy A5 – and I’ve been putting them together onto a single flash drive. Some of this stuff has graced this online space – whether it’d be videos made for the channel or the smattering of photos uploaded onto this blog… but a good chunk of this stuff hasn’t seen the light of day. Hell, a lot of this stuff I’ve seen for the first time in years, practically covering her entire lifespan.

Some of that stuff eventually became part of the Sacha tribute video that I put together and posted a couple weeks ago… but there’s a lot of stuff that’s still on the cutting room floor. It’s stuff that I would like to eventually share with everyone. It’s the only time that I’m more than willing to open up a part of my life… something that I’ve resistant to do in the past because I’m more of a private person.

I want to say that this gets easier over time… but it doesn’t. If anything, it becomes harder to bare.

Grief is a complex creature. It’s not something that is easily figured out. It’s not something that is easily resolved. It’s a process. And sometimes, that process can take a long time to get over. Hell, chances are it’s something you’ll never get over. That’s not a weakness or a failing. That’s a sign of how much that loved one meant to you, of how much they’ve had an affect on you. There’s no surefire way of handling grief, no one way to overcome that emotional burden. Everyone has their own way. Everyone has their own pace. Just because something works for one person doesn’t mean it works for you. It’s not a matter of “If I can do it, so can you” because nobody is wired the same way.

How each of us grieve is something that is unique to us. It’s not something that has a straightforward answer nor is it something that’s easy to figure out. Some folks find a way to grieve and eventually start to feel like their old selves. Others don’t quite make it over the hump, but will often hide it as to not upset anyone else. Some folks need a helping hand in getting over that hump while others could and probably would prefer to manage it themselves. There’s no singular right way to deal with grief and the only person who could truly figure this shit out is you.

However you get there… however long it takes… eventually, you’ll get there.

Remembering your loved ones, remembering all the good times you had, and keeping that memory alive… however you do that… that’s one way of showing how they affected you. Passing that love and care to others… that’s another. Or maybe that’s all the same thing.

Like I said, I’m not good at the grieving thing. Never was.

But I’m sure that sooner or later… I’ll get there.

However long it takes…

The Mania Main Event Picture

Today’s scheduled video has been pushed back to tomorrow due to some last-minute changes and edits. Because I don’t want to leave you totally hanging, I’ve decided to publish my gathering of thoughts regarding the Wrestlemania main event angle; something that I was going to touch on this weekend with the next DTM-CAST episode, but quite frankly, I wanna talk about other stuff and not make that episode drag longer than necessary.

So here are some quick thoughts I had regarding the whole Cody/Roman/Rock deal and hopefully, we’ll have a proper video tomorrow.

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The Winners And Losers Of 2023

Hey, kids… it’s that time, again.

The Winners And Losers of 2023 is here and… well, we’ll see.

2023 has been a rather trying year both personally and entertainment-wise. It got to the point where finding genuine winners of the year was a bit of a struggle. When I revisit the list every few weeks, I end up with more losers and middle-grounders than actual winners and that is somewhat troubling. There are memorable aspects to this year, but nothing that can be considered true highlights. With that in mind, it isn’t a total wash of negativity and there are some bright spots to be had… so let’s start with those.

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Haven’t We Been Here Before? – The Picard Season 3 Pre-Show Ramble

Tonight is the premiere episode of the third season of Star Trek: Picard.

The big TNG reunion season. The final season. The final journey. A clean break from the previous two seasons. That sort of thing. And you know what? Early reviews have been enthusiastic. It’s the best Trek in years. It’s the TNG reunion we should’ve had years. The press has been positive. Perhaps a bit too positive. This shouldn’t be cause for concern. This shouldn’t be raising any red flags. This shouldn’t be raising any shields. But it does on all counts.

The reason being that… I’ve been here before. I’ve seen this all before.

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The Winners And Losers Of 2022

Holy Sigma Virus, Batman! It’s a New Year! Hopefully, we’ll be off to a better start than 2022.

So with another year in the can, it’s time to go back to that annual tradition where I list all the Winners And Losers of 2022; a list that is highly subjective and is not going to cover every ground that was ever covered in the world because I don’t have the time. As per usual, compiling the list was a bit of a process, but unlike years past, this was actually pretty easy to put together, which is quite nice.

Anyway, enough waffle. Let’s dive into this thing.

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I Genuinely Don't Care About Ring Of Honor

Your weekly PPV Musings has been put on hiatus because I don’t feel like talking about PPVs anymore. So in its place, I’ll fill the void with some other stuff… such as today’s piece on why I don’t care about Ring Of Honor.

I’m going to clarify that I’m not talking about Ring Of Honor as a whole; my exposure to the promotion during its active years has been minimal, but the few shows that I would watch – be it the Best Of shows that would air on the Fight Network or the rare PPV show – I had enjoyed tremendously. It was never a product that I followed closely, but every so often, I would check out whenever I can.
Ring Of Honor had been around for two decades and when word broke that the promotion would be undergoing a restructuring hiatus, I was somewhat concerned yet unsurprised. The past couple years have been a trying period with the whole pandemic and some companies have struggled to stay afloat while others vanished into the ether. Ring Of Honor plodded along as best as it could, but realized it needed to change. Some assumed that the company would be going out of business. Given that all contracts were null and void – allowing talent to go anywhere else – the possibility was more than likely.
And then one day, on an episode of AEW Dynamite, president and CEO Tony Khan announces that he had acquired Ring Of Honor. Everyone rejoiced. ROH was saved and it was under the ownership of someone who was a fan of the sport and would carry on the legacy of Ring Of Honor. Then the first PPV of the new era, Supercard of Honor, took place and it was a good show. People were hyped and excited.
And then ROH titles and stars started appearing on AEW television. Okay, fine. We need to keep the brand alive until we can get a TV deal. And we can still do the occasional PPV event; Death By Dishonor was the other show they did… didn’t watch it, but I’ve heard good things.
And then ROH titles and stars continued to appear on AEW television… while the guys signed to AEW who were really hot signings that people were excited about seeing was nowhere to be found.
Where the fuck is Miro?
It seems like as time went on, more time was devoted to ROH talent and storylines rather than spotlighting AEW stars on the AEW show that the AEW audience was watching. And the more often I would see ROH on my screen, the more I started to not care about ROH. Because at the end of the day, I watch AEW programming for AEW matches, stars, and stories. That’s the brand I’m interested in, not this half-baked ROH zombie that you’re keeping on life support until you find a TV deal.
Where the fuck is Miro?
So this past weekend, AEW held its final Ring Of Honor PPV of the year. I did not watch it. I’ve heard good things about the show, but I wasn’t interested. (I did see the post-PPV press conference and man, was that a fucking embarrassmentTo be honest with you, I haven’t watched a single AEW PPV since Double Or Nothing. And the funny thing about that is that I not only didn’t watch the shows, but I don’t even know that they’re on until the day of or long after the fact. It’s no secret that AEW is in a bit of a creative lull and there’s a lot of things that needs to be fixed.
This ROH thing is one of them.
Looks like there’s good news on that front; Tony Khan announced that there’s going to be a weekly ROH show… on the ROH Honor Club subscription service and nowhere else. Not exactly sure how that’s a positive in that you have to pay for your weekly fix of ROH, but hey, as long as it gets ROH off my AEW television and we can start bringing back some of that neglected AEW talent, I’ll all for it.
I know I’ve been down on this ROH thing. I’m not the only one, as many people have voiced similar concerns over the overabundance of ROH on AEW. Maybe someday, I’ll be a fan of ROH when it’s its own thing and not something that’s part of the AEW show. I don’t know.
That’s all I’ve got.
Later.
P.S. – Where the fuck is Miro?

VIDEO COMMENTARY #58 – Rewatching My Old Star Wars GBA Reviews (DTM House Show)

Something came up, so today’s “scheduled” programming has been postponed. In its place, I’ve put together four old reviews on four old Star Wars games on the GBA ahead of my revisiting these games this week. I even talk a bit, but that’s about it. Don’t expect quality; these things haven’t aged well, but provide a contrast to the upcoming stock.

Random Thoughts On Vince McMahon’s Retirement

So if you didn’t catch the news this past Friday afternoon – July 22nd, 2022 – Vincent Kennedy McMahon, 77, had announced his retirement from WWE, stepping down from all responsibilities including CEO, Chairman, and head of WWE Creative. The news came amid a series of allegations directed towards McMahon regarding hush money payouts to various female employees regarding personal favors, if you get my drift.

There is a lot to process here and quite frankly, even a couple days after the fact, I’m still trying to find the right words that convey how I feel about this. Regardless of whether the allegations are true or not – and part of me feels that this is Vince making the move to get out of WWE on his terms before external forces would’ve pushed him out if things didn’t go his way – the fact that Vince is actually, honest to god, retiring – as a shoot, brutha – is something that many have thought would never happen. Everyone figured Vince would keep doing this until he very much died… and then found a way to cheat death and run WWE from beyond the grave.

Fact is, if this scandal hadn’t been brought up, he still could very well have been. I say that without a hint of malice or benevolence; just what I believe deep down is the truth. Vince McMahon’s life was WWE, everything he did revolved around WWE, and trying to picture him retired and out of the public eye while WWE is still a thing is almost akin to division by zero; it’s impossible to picture.

And yet, here we are.

There is a lot you can say about Vince McMahon. Some have called him a father figure. Others have called him an asshole. Some have referred to him as a creative genius. Others consider him to be out of touch. Some know him as the man who took his father’s regional wrestling promotion and turned it into a global brand in sports entertainment and beyond. Others have decried him for making a mockery of the sports of professional wrestling. Some will bring up some of the good that he has done over the decades while others will accuse him of things more scandalous than others.

There is, indeed, a lot to say about Vince McMahon. But when all is said and done, one thing remains absolutely crystal clear; there will only ever be one Vincent Kennedy McMahon. Anyone else coming up in the wrestling business will never be able to match up to the incredible life and career that this man has had. They can try, but it’s never going to happen.

One will undoubtedly wonder what WWE will be like now that Vince is gone… and that is another story for another time. For now, all I will say is… Thanks for the memories, Vince. You may have slipped off the wagon in recent years, but it was your product and your performances that made me a regular fan of this genre of entertainment and for that, you have my thanks. Wish all the best in all your future endeavors.

P.S. So now that Vince is gone, does that mean Maria Kanellis is open to coming back to WWE?

P.P.S. Can we start digging up some shit on Kevin Dunn so he can step down and we can have a show that doesn’t look like shit? You can have anybody behind the wheel on creative, but if the camera work and production looks like amateur hour, what does it matter?

P.P.P.S. Congratulations to Tony Khan for being the longest tenured CEO in sports entertainment today. Keep up the good work. (I assume check’s in the mail?)

P.P.P.P.S. Don’t be surprised if this whole thing ultimately blows over and Vince comes back better than ever or however that goes. It’s wrestling, after all. Retirement is another word for extended sabbatical.

P.P.P.P.P.S. I’ve got nothing else. Go away.

The Bore Of Boba Fett

You know, one of these days, I’m going to enjoy the new Star Wars… and not in an ironic way. For example, my favorite part of The Mandalorian is when the Scout Trooper punches Baby Yoda in the face. That was the best piece of Star Wars television I’ve seen. Also, my favorite scene in the newer Star Wars movies is the last third of Rogue One, where all the main heroes die and then Darth Vader kills a bunch of Rebels as they escape for a new hope.

Actually, you know what? I tell a bit of a lie; The Mandalorian was, for better or worse, one of the better pieces of Star Wars visual media that has been produced since the changeover in ownership to Disney. And despite my favorite part being Baby Yoda being punched in the face, I actually don’t mind the little guy. He and Mando (or Din) have a good relationship and I’m happy to see that they were reunited at the end of the Boba Fett show.

Oh yeah, we’re supposed to talk about The Book Of Boba Fett.

Except… the show is so goddamned boring. Basically, it’s like the last bunch of Star Wars movies; a whole lot of nothing happens throughout several episodes. In fact, the only time where things seemed to be picking up is when they bring back the Mandalorian to help boost up interest in this sagging show. The idea of an older Boba Fett trying to be a nicer ganglord and fighting all these other ganglords or whatever… good lord, I never thought I’d find something that put me to sleep faster than the average 20-minute HHH promo, but this might take the fucking cake.

The only time I had a vested interest in what the show offered was when ol’ Mando showed up and we were following along his adventures. And then we see a bit of the Jedi planet where Baby Yoda is being trained by a CG Luke Skywalker… before he decides to fuck off and join up with Mando again. Hell, my favorite moment in the whole show is when Mando is building his new ship; essentially a recycled Naboo starfighter, but made to look cooler and less lame. I liked that show and giving Mando a starfighter as opposed to another gunship is an inspired choice.

Maybe it’s just me not sold on the concept or maybe it’s just me hoping for more of Mando, but with Boba. Or maybe this Star Wars stuff ain’t for me. And that’s fine. If they do another season of Mando, I’ll check that out then, but until then… no buys for the book of Boba.